six months on....

I think the core of my brain is now getting back into the swing of things. I am writing again, and my brain seems to be following it like the yellow brick road.
I have been writing on and off, but the escalation of prolificness has not been there. Now I am to focus on the magazine I had done for nine years without really a break until the operation I had similar of Russell Watson the classical singer had. Yep, the pituitary area....it was a benign tumour. As much came out as the brain would allow etc etc.
Since the writer Terry Sorby passed away and I was with him when I renamed Ebb & Flow from Josie Magazine, and he aided me in starting a free information website, I am turning the corner. Whereby it was a non-profit magazine with Treasurey account etc. I am now retired, so will be focusing on the magazine as a hobby. I'm sure many will be interested in it still.
The new name as of this weekend past...and agreed upon with the Patron....
EBB & FLOW (The New Voice) previously known as EBB & FLOW COMMUNITY MAGAZINE. Wish me luck all of you please...it is therapy for me, but also, I hope many other writers, artists, photographers will feel the same. All copyright stays with the owners of course, cannot be returned....and the main bulk (if any) will be in places like the Hastings Reference Library...a few outlets like reading tables where I leave them, universities I hope and where the power of me is able to leave them. I am looking forward to the challenge. I am focusing on trying to get it done for the Christmas period. I've been researching and putting feelers out for contributions...quite surprised myself....anyway, hope it will reach the stars one day. Take care.
OH by the way...anybody who wants to send anything may....either by email...to josie30@btopenworld.com - or the magazines postal address (ehmm - don't forget the postal looming strike....PO Box 117, St Leonards on Sea, East Sussex. TN38 9ZJ - UK

My reading power seems to be a little better now...I've got myself an ereader....I'd recommend them. I got mine in Waterstones....you upload the books from the net...the one I have can have 3 settings on the font size...I use the largest being partially sighted...it saves your place fine...being lighter also for me helps greatly...I did say to Waterstones I would pass on info similar to a review....well worth it I think. Now using one of these, I think I could get involved in a book reading club...but the normal is a month...be great if there was a half year or something like that....maybe GROW will consider a reading book club....then a discussion, then a written piece from the readers....I've got a book on my bookshelf that I read back in 1979 with an adult education course...I thought it great, mind you - I could read awhole lot faster then being also a lover of reading books, but got very slow over the years due to eye problems....But, it is good on the eye muscles you know...anyway, I bought a duplicate about 2 years ago, and wish to read again....not sure yet without research if I can gain it for the reader but I will try....I was reminded again today as it was in one of the hands of characters of Eastenders tonight...the book - TESTAMENT of YOUTH by Vera Brittain. Written on the front cover - 'A haunting elegy for a lost generation' THE TIMES - With a new introduction by Mark Bostridge...so it will be slightly different for me....After all...even though GROW is a writing group - reading is also part of thought knowledge, as what you read was also written by writers.

Right think I'll sign off now...getting tired. Until next time.

Once before...

15/16 years ago, I had the first operation on one of my eyes...I experienced blindness, but I was determined to get it working for me...gradually, I began to type again...I became so prolific...I am hoping to get back into this theme again...I do not want to lose the faith in my words...I know though that I must take it easy...at the moment, my back is really crippling me...

Finding hard to write

I thought I would try and write my thoughts on a new blog post. Since I wrote before, I have undergone a serious operation...my inspiration words seem lost at the moment. I am entering a poem I wrote two days after the operation, since then, I am finding it very difficult. Time is a healer though. Since also, whilst in hospital, I heard a friend had died that week and last night I heard someone else I knew died last Thursday.
I am spending time watching TV and DVDs - this way, I believe stories will build within my brain. Also, I am training it with the nintendo ds lite games. I shall cut and past the poem on here now...I will have to stop as my neck is hurting...until next time


THE CARING ROLE
I can see they all work so hard
They have such a kind nature
They deserve all they can muster
In terms of wages well earned

The bleeps of please come and help
Their true caring role blossoming
They don't seem to have much time
Yet, the caring role still shines

Hurstwood Park Neurological Centre
Neurosurgery Ward
Such a friendly and happy atmosphere
And I was one of the patients there

I'm still here if the truth was known
I haven't quite left for home
I only had my transphenoidal op on the 4th
To remove the alien there.

I've had a few rough days
Understandable don't you think?
It was to remove a benign non-functioning pituitary tumour
As I was led to believe it was slightly growing

The doctors, anesthetists, assistants,
Neurosurgeon had such a great disposition
I think anybody would be positive to come here
To have help for their lives to continue

I'm glad I made the choice
It goes to prove it can be done
I hope others will say yes
If they need an operation there

It would of course be understandable
To have nerves, even a panic attack
But that would be quite natural
I'm sure I'll write again next week.

©6.3.09 JOSIE LAWSON
All Rights Reserved
(Comment: I was taken ill with other parts of my body on the 10th March,
so ended up in hospital another 6 days -Time is now my healer)

Awake but should be asleep

It is the 27th January, the day I should go to GROW. I have written what I feel right for the class, but found the website slightly different. I tried to find the section of the homework, but it seems to have been moved. I needed to secure my thinking as my class book has accidentally been packed in a carrier bag until sorted. I am having to tidy pretty drastically, as I am all set to have a pituitary benign tumour removed in March. I have to go to the hospital re: my ears in the morning, so I may not actually arrive to extend my wishes of the lyric before they finish. I was going to try, but the importance of the hospital visit is priority because of the forthcoming operation. I do not understand why the homework section has been removed. I did not get an email or text saying this.
All I can do is follow the section occasionally and see. Maybe I have forgotten how to find it...but I did go through each section; mind you alot more writings have been placed on the website.
I must finish now for the time being, as it is now 1am, and I have a taxi arriving to pick me up at 8.50am. The appt is 9.45am....so I may get to the class for at least half an hour....

Today is a new day

I start a blog on the GROW website. I am beginning with eyes tired. I will find a niche on my pillow and then the next time I come this way, my eyes may be open wider. Words felt this way, means they are not making sense. Must be the brain of no return.